40 days since my last high

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by AfterFact, Jul 29, 2012.

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  1. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    It's been 40 days since I stopped getting high on Adderall. I still fight the urges, but its begining to get easier. I just hope I can keep going with this, keep resisting. I want to feel good for real, not artifically.
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Congratulations hun you are dong so well hugs
     
  3. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    Doesnt feel like it. It feels like I'm just now hitting bottom, that I've finally stopped digging my own hole. But I don't feel good. Not yet. It feels like I'm facing a even greater challenge now. Rebuilding my life after nearly destorying it. It's going to take months to get back to running where I was earlier this year running 15 miles for fun. I got my junior year ahead of me, I got the most important years of my life to deal with and I'm nowhere near recovered.
    I'm rebuilding my life after destorying it for 4 years. I'm not doing well. Not yet.
     
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I hope each day then you get a little stronger then before hun small steps will lead to the big ones hugs
     
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