I'm married 42 year old farther of 3 and my whole world has fallen apart can't gon anymore. Just hurts so bad. Don't have the strength just want to sleep and not wake up. Evrything reminds me of how happy life was only less then a year ago. Just want to go back. Everything Just want to back there again. How did I get here. Just so effed up now. Just want to go. Just so painful.