Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by Mistake-n, Jan 3, 2009.

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  1. Mistake-n

    Mistake-n Guest

    I made a lot of mistakes, and I'm sorry.
    I'm not going to sit here and act like I'm a good person and that I've changed, and that I don't need this place more than ever.
    I'm not going to sit here and tell anyone that I've changed.
    I'm working on it.
    But I need help, too.
    I'm a person, too.

    I sit here wondering how many of you even know, even remember.
    I am a person.
    I do exist.
    And I do make mistakes.
    I'm so sorry.
  2. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    We all make mistakes in our lives. The important thing is that we learn from them so we don't make them again. What is happening for you right now?
  3. Mistake-n

    Mistake-n Guest

    Things are going okay, for me. I can't tell you why I did the things I did. I don't think I'll ever really know. I needed help. I saught attention just like any other person would. I went about getting it in the wrong way. You can sit back and think of me as an attention seeker, and that's fine. I admit it. I need attention. I need love, I need reassurance. If that makes me an attention seeker, I'm proud of what I am. My sincerest apologies will never be enough, I recognize that. I haven't changed, but I have made progress. I have made so much progress. It took work. It took really looking at myself, picking apart myself. I worked so damn hard. If that, paired with my sincere apologies isn't enough for you, I still understand. I recognize that what happened wasn't okay, not in the least bit, nor is it justifiable. I don't expect everyone to come running back to me saying "Hey! I missed you, how was your summer?". Because honestly, this place brings back memories. And while it may be a very safe haven for those truly in need.... it's also walking through hell, for those of us like me, who really messed up things here, and truly feel guilty and remorseful. I'll be the first to say it. I forgive myself. It's the first step to letting others forgive you. I forgive me for what I did. I hope others will, but if they don't, I cannot make them, and if I tried, it would make things worse. I hope to someday come back here and help people as much as I was helped in fighting. There are some truly wonderful and unique people here, and I'll be the first to say that I missed you.

    I'm afraid giving away any of my personal information would "give me away". I fully intend on coming out as who I am in the future... the near future. But I would like for people to see this side of me before they see the side that they will remember.
  4. jonstark

    jonstark Well-Known Member

  5. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    Your human, a living being. Don't beat yourself up for making mistakes.
  6. Mistake-n

    Mistake-n Guest

    I am human, and I have made mistakes. I am done beating myself up over it. Like I said, I have forgiven me.

    I have one question directed at the staff.
    I realize that to many, I am not welcome here, and I understand and accept that. But I hope that, for those not affected by my previous actions will benefit from the help I come to offer.

    I hope that there is still a place for me left at SF.
    I was banned not too long ago for having multiple accounts, but before I had come back, I had been gone for a long while. My behavior while here with my newest name reflected my full-time behavior. With this name, there were no lies, no arguments, and no manipulation.
    I messed up, and I hope SF will give me another chance to help and to be part of my once home.
    Thanks for reading, I'll be around.
  7. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hi, everyone makes mistakes :hug:

    I hope you are given another chance!
  8. Mistake-n

    Mistake-n Guest

    I realize that its inappropriate for me to be asking to be un-banned. However, I am asking that of staff here simply because I truly believe that I can have a positive influence on people here. I hope that staff can see that from my behavior on my last account, and can accept me back to this wonderful place. :)
  9. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Are you the guy who claimed to be an ex-rapist? :unsure:
  10. Mistake-n

    Mistake-n Guest

    No, I am not.
  11. Mistake-n

    Mistake-n Guest

    Any mods going to address my questions? :)
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