i dont belong here at least not in the chat i cant believe the shit that has been going on in last few days mods have acted not complaining i am just really incredulous. it has been made pretty much clear to me i am not liked or valied and the people i thought were friends arent. i listen to them they dont give a shit when iam hurting and today i am really upset. no need to reply. i dont belong here. not with people who do that shit. i am told i am shit yet i try to help as many as i can and how often do i post on here asking for anything. i think the forum is better for finding people who care, the chat is out of control. need to say this. i am v upset i am feeling so unbelievably worthless. thi sis nt a request for response i am not some immature arsehole fishing for them i am just gutted. i cant even fit in on a fucking suicide forum. i dont want to be here anymore. i dont want to be pregnant and i want to just drink all my meds and go. i have enough. what use is there in being alive if even on a suicide forum there are complete arseholes. i have fought and fought and fought through my illness and disability and fo rwhat. nothing. im done. seriously. enough. ty to those who have been kind and real.