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[wheresmysheep]

psychiatric evaluation is at 11am (13hours from know) tomorrow.
i am shitting it, i dont know what the out come will be.
i have a niggling voice saying i'm going to be detained. and a small part of me wants that to happen just so my mother shuts up about me not having anything wrong.

i am scared.

 

[Scum]

Good luck for tomorrow.

If they want you admitted, then it's far better to go voluntary than be involuntarily admitted.

I hope that what comes of tomorrow is that you get some decent help to help you with everything that is causing you struggles.

Please let us know how it goes.

 

[Abacus21]

Scum's right, Emma ... We're all here for you, whatever happens - remember that :hug:

 

[Stranger1]

I agree with Scum, it's better to go voluntarily than nonvoluntarily..Why don't you write down your thoughts so when you see the doctor you won't freeze up because you can fall back on what you wrote..I wish you all the best!!!

 

[WildCherry]

Good luck tomorrow!!!

 

[Vitreledonellidae]

you told me once it was so hard for you to find help, so if youre going to be detained please accept it and not because you want to prove your mom wrong, but for yourself
good luck emma :hug:

 

[wheresmysheep]

Thank you all.
It was a very strange experience, i'm not exactly sure what happened from it. but i am now waiting to see a psychologist and i have been put on fluxotine 20mg, on top of my zyprexa 10mg.
i didnt really liek any of it, the guy was very demeaning, and he seemed sceptical of it all, also when i was leaving, you know how they say do you have any thoughts or plans to harm yoursel, i said 'its an option as i dont know how i will feel in the hours/days to come,' and they said, 'no its not'. but to a person dealing with suicidal thoughts, it is. that kinda annoyed me.

idk what else will happen now.

 

[Scum]

I hope that the meds and the psychologist can help.

Well done for going.

 

[WillST]

Thinking of you :mellow:

 

[Mightbehere]

:smile:, remember there's plenty of people that care about you.

 

[~Claire]

I hope you don't need to wait too long for your psychology appt honey. They tend to be a lot more understanding than the psychiatrists.

Thinking of you :hug:.

 

[wheresmysheep]

its going to be a few months, but tbh all this is feeling pointless right now. i really couldnt be arsed continuing with it much

 

[Vitreledonellidae]

dont be stupid

 

[wheresmysheep]

feels like the help is stupid, they're looking down on me, thinking i'm lying i know they are. its worse than being on my own

 

[Hayley]

Sheepy you're better than any of them. You may be going through this, but it takes a real wanker to look down on someone with suicidal thoughts. You're not worth any less than anyone who isn't on those meds or anyone who doesn't see a psychiatrist. Remember that. Don't let that guy get you down, he obviously isn't doing his job properly if he can't try and understand you. I'm glad you weren't detained

 

[soapymongoose]

I'm going for similar on the 13th July. I'm treating it as a complete joke.

I actually have incredibly similar issues to yourself though. It would be so easy to tell them to fuck themselves if they give me the opportunity. I'm just hoping I get put in front of someone who actually listens and has something resembling insight :unsure:

You should try and follow it through, I say this without having a clue what I'm going to do myself though

 

[wheresmysheep]

well i have started my new meds, i dont feel any different.
i still think the assessment was a complete joke, they seemed so impartial and as if i was wasting their time. its all a bit of a much ado about nothing.
I'm loosing my drive for this 'getting better' malarky