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Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Phoenix1985, May 22, 2009.

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  1. Phoenix1985

    Phoenix1985 Well-Known Member

    It hurts so much.
    I give up. I swear I do.
    I don't want to go on anymore.
    I'm hurting inside, I feel dead.
     
  2. Phoenix1985

    Phoenix1985 Well-Known Member

    I must such a burden to my friends and family.
     
  3. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    What's wrong? And I don't think you're a burden. It's not your fault you're feeling this way.
     
  4. Remedy

    Remedy Chat & Forum Buddy

    Did something happen? Stay and talk to us about it. My PM box is always open. :hug:
     
  5. *sparkle*

    *sparkle* Staff Alumni

    Hi Phoenix

    What's up? Did something happen to make you feel worse? :hug: Please try and talk - lots of people to listen here

    Ellie
     
  6. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni

    I know you how you feel :console:
    Things can get better hun :heart:
     
  7. Phoenix1985

    Phoenix1985 Well-Known Member

    I'm in love and I can't have him anymore. Been five months and I still can't get over him.
    I feel like it's a stupid reason to feel so bad given why other people feel this way.
    I feel like a burden on my friends and family for being so depressed.
     
  8. LeafQQ

    LeafQQ Member

    don't ever think you are a burden....
    Im sorry about your ex.... it takes time to heal... but there are lots of good guys out there!....
    and its not a stupid reason...
     
  9. Princeofhope

    Princeofhope Well-Known Member

    I don't post here often, but I had to get this off my chest. I was going to post how I'm tempted to off-myself, but I saw your post...and your name, I felt I had to say this.

    I grew up in the States, and one I was in college...I met this girl. The most amazing girl in my mind. She was perfect in every way, but she never thought of herself that way.

    I screwed up big. So I left the country, I left everything behind...all of it to forget about a girl.

    I left for Tokyo. I thought it would work, I thought I could start fresh. I thought I could forget. I couldn't.

    ...so on my 21st birthday, I decided to climb Mt. Fuji which I did. It was covered in snow...and hail. People were to scared to keep climbing, but I kept fighting. I felt I had to do it...if only to clean my sins.

    ...so I climbed. I kept climbing until my body was on the verge of breaking. I passed out at night, I was in a "hotel" around the top of Mt. Fuji...I had to keep climbing.

    I got to the top, and I saw a sunrise. It was a sunrise like no other.

    In the distance, I could see a phoenix...I could see it, and I knew it was real. I told myself, that I could learn to forget. I could move on. I told myself that even the crimes I've committed can be forgiven.

    It's been a year since I climbed Fuji, and it feels like it's almost daily that she comes up at least once in my mind. I feel like crap everyday.

    Today, I got a message...about a situation I'm in. The world crashed down...and I'm so afraid. I'm not sure if my life is worth a damn, but I do know I saw a phoenix at Mt. Fuji, and I know I had to spread what I saw.

    I'm so afraid right now...but knowing that I can somehow help, eases my soul.

    I don't know who you are...but I promise you that everything will be okay. You have to move on and have faith.

    Rise like the phoenix you are.

    http://img43.imageshack.us/img43/2999/img0143x.jpg

    http://img43.imageshack.us/img43/5488/img0141u.jpg
    (Can you see the phoenix? It's right behind where the clouds and sun kiss.)
     
  10. Phoenix1985

    Phoenix1985 Well-Known Member

    Thank you every one for your kind replies.
     
  11. LeafQQ

    LeafQQ Member

    how is everything going now?
    I think the Princeofhope's message was inspirational...
     
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