He's my fourth friend to try to commit suicide in the past 2 weeks. And this time, it definitely was my fault. WHAT THE FUCK GOD?!?!? The world is crumbling. He had been flirting with me the past few days, and then we went to a party. At the party, I hooked up with another guy, and when my friend saw, he stomped out. I didn't react as I should have. I should have gone after him. I sent him a message the next day explaining myself - how, although I thought that my friend was attractive and great, I didn't want to be in a relationship with him b/c I always seem to fuck up relationships, and I valued him too much as a friend. He said that it wasn't a problem. He asked me how I was doing. Every day, he would ask me if I was okay. And I told him to stop asking. I told him that I was okay. And I asked him if he was okay. And he told me that he was. He told me. He lied to me to my face! I should have been able to tell. How am I supposed to react to everyone I love wanting to be dead? Why is this happening? How can I be expected to deal with this?