so i am having a really bad month. i was in the navy and got an honorable discharge due to mental illness. i had 2 overdoses of meds while i was in the navy and one really big overdose of muscle relaxers just 2 years ago. i've been getting treated but i have been out of money for the last 2 months with no gas to get to my doctors and psyciatrists and am almost out of meds. i owe my landlord 2 months rent and my bank account is -$82 in the hole. i have been thinking about suicide just about 24/7 for the last 2 weeks and having alot of crying spells. i spent today trying to find some razor blades i know i have somewhere but i cant find them. i just dont know what to do and i have nobody to talk to.