I have been thinking back on my life and I have realized I was a wreck when I first signed up on here and have had my moments of false happiness where I feel that maybe I finally overcame my "issues." Fact is nothing changes for me. I always go back to feeling hopeless and worthless. I never overcome my illnesses, physical or mental. I know in my heart that I cannot last much longer. Something will give out on me... whether it's my mind and I end up just taking that one step too far or my body and I succumb to an asthma attack or whatever else is wrong with me physically. There is only so much a person can handle over time. I feel like I have reached my limits and then some.