I dont know who I am anymore. I dont know my own feelings anymore. I dont even know if I know my own sexuality anymore!!!!!!! So I let myself think with my heart instead of head. I said what I wanted to say and what I thought you needed to hear. I thought I had finally figured out the big question. I thought it felt right. Guess I was completely wrong again. I'm not even worthy of that. '[p0tjuhy9lom'AWUOy';awy0- Why did this weekend have to end up being just another attenmpt. Just fucking let me die and be over with all this shit already!!!! I'm tired of being hurt by life and love. I want to scream til it drains me right out. I want to hurt myself for being so stupid. I want to die!!!!!!!!