6 months ago today i was raped by my ex-boyfriend. i was raped by 2 strangers almost 17 months ago. i was raped by a "friend" almost 2 years ago. i was also raped by an old boyfriend 4 1/2 years ago which resulted in a pregnancy that I miscarried because he beat me up when i told him i was pregnant. i'm so sick of all of these fucking flashbacks and nightmares and triggers. i feel like it's never going to get any better. i just want it all to end and the world to go away!