I feel a wave of emotions right now. I didn't even know him well, but now its hit me hard. I feel angry, upset, anxious, violent. I just want to scream until my lungs give out. I want to bang myself into walls and I don't care who hears me. I need to be strong for my friend...but I can't and it just hurts anymore. I'm just a useless waste of space that needs to go die somewhere where no one can find me. Then maybe it would give room for someone more worthy of everyone's time. If I can't help others, why do I even exist?