Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Anni, Feb 25, 2010.
fed up crying and hurting and feeling so shitty
why am i here
agreed i feel the same!!!
Know the feeling always asking the same questions.
Do we go on just to please others or hopeing something better will happen?
Slowly running out of hope though!
im just here to please others right now
and i dont see the point
we are in this together!!
seems there is a massing of suicidal people waiting it out and now have given up including me. ive no doubt familiar faces will disappear soon.
life is shit and i wouldnt blame anyone as i used to be so optomistic but the wind has been taken away and im left as a hollow being.
I hope all of you can hang on as there is hope new meds being made even today new therapies. Hang on okay there is always hope.
Sorry violet im totally sick of hanging on, hoping. Ugh i dont know
i think we are here becaue have an indelible stain of health and hope. a long left memory or dream of being connected and whole. We want to be healed even more than we want to die. As much as we struggle and strive we have an inate desire for life and sharing and being. It's not difficult to classify and recognize fear, lonileness and exhaustion. It's consuming to feel all that, to see only grey or black, but we are more than that, in our hearts we want.....
we feel that wanting and need and instead of allowing ourselves to hope we stand here holding out our pain or numbness or emptiness in a small desperate soundless hope that some one will see us and share some warmth and belief and offer us a reason to go on, without our have to risk asking for help yet again. we hope but we are afraid to hope
feel exactly the same!
so nearly done
that's the worst thing about it though, it's indestructable
hope won't give up in you. it will compell you pitiously on
we are all much stronger than we might wish to be
hope makes me think maybe there might be something
but then there never is
theres only ever shit
and its crushing every time
yes i do hear and understand that
may be you can confine your hope to one smallish thing
what one smallish thing might you hope for?
i dont even know what i hope for
oh, well that is difficult
is there something you might wish not to happen?
but itll all continue happening whether i wish or not
cuz lifes a bitch
I know that you are fed up, but you are so strong and you always find something to live for. Please keep holding on..The world would be a sad place without you
You are such a nice person, please keep going.. :hug: xx
holding on is hard
i doubt the world would change much
and im not nice
i apologize to you Anni, i had to shut down abruptly, not everything is well here.
it is hard to hold on, but it's also hard to let go
for so so many, too things that you could wish not to happen i have the same thought as with too much hope. Perhaps a smaller unhope, one not so overwhelming thing to wish for, and then plan for and then maybe some peace. i am thinkng good thoughts towards you