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  1. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    my heart is broken and the pain is so intense it's nearly paralyzing

    two people that i care about so deeply may have gone on the same day

    i was desperately trying to reach through to the first hoping she would change her mind and get help and i sat with her, watching her fade when the second only popped in long enough to say goodbye without even giving me a chance to respond

    i only made it through the night because of my sleeping pills and a promise that i would be here in the morning

    but i feel so broken inside, so utterly useless and powerless - these people were the ones who saved me, who became my anchors

    now i'm just drifting lost again and heading for the rocks
     
  2. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    :hug: i still love you
     
  3. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    i know hon, but maybe you should stop

    it will hurt less that way
     
  4. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

    i can't but if it would help...
     
  5. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    won't help me, but it might help you
     
  6. cookiemonster

    cookiemonster Banned Member

  7. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    I'm so sorry echo..you did your best...
    I know what you are saying...it hurts to watch someone you care about on here not want to go on...
    the not knowing is the worst...
    maybe they will still be around???..hugs
     
  8. absolution

    absolution Forum Buddy

    Stan! please no!....please :cry: please ill do anything you want.! please no!
     
  9. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    nothing to do with you sam

    i can't help those that i love, i'm failing at the most important things in life

    i can't help people without giving each of them a piece of my heart, it's just the way i am and now 2, maybe 3 pieces of my heart are gone

    i knew the risks going in
     
  10. ASolitaryBlue

    ASolitaryBlue Well-Known Member

    stan, stop it.
    stop.
    do you hear me?
    i know you hurt.
    god, i know.
    but as much as it sucks,
    as much as we hate it,
    there is only so much we can do for another person.
    and you have done more than anyone could have asked for.
    hell, you dont think you saved my life the other day?
    you can still help the people you care about.
    but this depression, this sadness, is trying to tell you otherwise.
    dont listen to it.
    not for a minute.
    ***hugs***
    i love you stan, and you know i dont say that lightly.
     
  11. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    yes pieces of the heart go with them....
     
  12. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    liz i love you too

    please learn from my mistakes - i lived with too much pain before i knew what was wrong and i've never been able to talk to a therapist

    talk to your doctor on thursday, do not blow off the appointment, give them a chance to help you so that you don't turn into me
     
  13. ASolitaryBlue

    ASolitaryBlue Well-Known Member

    no.
    don't do this stan.
    not to me, not to your wife and family,
    not to the people here that care about you.

    it's your time to go now,
    just bc two people you loved and cared about
    decided it was their time?
    you told me that was no reason.
    you are not kali, or swimmer, or anyone else.
    you are you.
    and you are in pain, i know.
    but we will, i will, help you find a way back out of it.
    honest.
     
  14. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    i don't see how

    it's so dark
     
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  16. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    please stop

    just let me go
     
  17. swimmergirl

    swimmergirl Well-Known Member

    I am here , i dont know why you assumed i wasn't, i tried chatting, you were obviously busy, and instead of just telling me that, ignored me, so I left chat and went and talked to someone else who was not busy. Don't blow this all out of proportion, geez, stop making me look like the bad guy, when all I did was cut our conversation short because I got sick of sitting around waiting for you to respond because I realized you were distracted or talking to someone else. I did say I would talk to you later.... sorry if it upset you, but i needed someone to talk to and you weren't free to do that.
     
  18. ASolitaryBlue

    ASolitaryBlue Well-Known Member

    **hug**
    hon, i know it is.
    i know its so dark you cant see a way out.
    ive been there, remember?
    i know it feels like theres no way out.
    we feel the same, you know we do.
    so i know,
    and i know that there is a way.
    but you have to stay with us here.
    you have to trust me now, like i trusted you.
    dont let go. not yet.
    this world still needs you in it.
     
  19. ASolitaryBlue

    ASolitaryBlue Well-Known Member

    stan, NO.

    i will NOT just let you go.

    i will help you try to pull out of this, but letting go just isnt an option.
     
  20. absolution

    absolution Forum Buddy

    im not letting you go either! please dont do this! please
    i love you stan! i love you so very much!
    please dont do this! please!!!
    :cry: no no no no no no
     
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