Do you ever think doctors are just useless? Considering suicide is a life or death situation, and some of us have tried to kill ourselves countless of times with a variety of different methods (some lethal), yet there seems to be nothing they can do. Or nothing they WILL do, to help us? Well thats the situation I'm in. No lasting liver damage from last weeks overdose (unfortunately) So I'm planning (although have been trying to put off) hanging myself. Why? Because the effects of anorexia, bulimia, insomnia, panic disorder, depression and agoraphobia are just a little too much. And no matter how much I explain, or fight, or dont fight…it never really makes much difference. And you get tired. (so F***king tired). And I've spent the last 7.5 hours lying in bed, not worrying this time about how much food im going to consume tomorrow, or how many times in going to throw up/panic/hallucinate from exhuastion…but just how many people are going to be in church. Because there has to be some closure, escape and rest, somewhere. Anywhere. Just, anywhere. In the midst of all of this.