i've never written on this part of the forum before and ... i still don't know if i want to ... i guess i'll persevere i've just been triggered (badly) by a post someone put up on the suicide thread earlier, and it's making me want to hurt myself ... a lot. i've had flashbacks pretty much every day since i was ... attacked (don't want to say the word), 7 years ago. i was 10. i've learnt to control them to a degree but they're always there at night. i don't know why at night, i guess that's just when i have (too much) time to think. has anyone been through this and had flashbacks that they were able to get rid of completely? i need to know someone has got through this and not had it completely ruin their entire life :cry: ... i'm losing hope here.