I hope your having a better day today. I agree with above you can not always (alot these days) depend on a healthy relationship between child and parents. Sometimes parents do more damage than good. Please dont take this brainwashing bullying to heart, dont let it be the person you turn out to be. Show him that you can be sucessful and without his help and guidance. Prove to yourself that hes wrong.
When you get these overwhelming urges to hurt yourself, get out of where you are at, put yourself in a differant place. Go to the park, go for a walk, go run around the house screaming, do whatever you have to get past that point of urgency.
PM me anytime.