Hey New here, I don’t know why im posting on a forum, I guess I need to tell people, even though I don’t know anyone here. basically, I want to commit suicide, but I cant :sad: I tried it about 4 years ago, being woken up by my mum crying, I cant ever do it again, it makes me feeling like shit for doing it, im probly going to hell for that day, but I just cant do it to my family. but I want to, im not happy with my life, I haven’t been for at least 8 years, I have the odd nice week, but I lack something, I had no goals, I don’t know what to do, ive never had a relationship with a girl (pathetic I know) and I don’t know why, maybe its because I don’t show any confidence in myself, because I have none. funny thing is to my friends everything seems fine to them, im in a good band, have a job and go college, just if I mention any of my problems, no one listens to me, I just get called "emo" how funny is that. I am just never happy with my life, people say things get better, but no, they do NOT. its like they say it just to try and give you hope, I even remember my best friend telling me this about 7 years ago things will get better, but nothings changed in my life, all my friends are going somewhere, meeting new people, starting their own life. I just can’t seem to get anyway, im afraid if this keeps going on, if I meet someone, ill be too depressed to even talk to them. its already starting, everything I try at I fail because of this, I think I would be better just vanishing and not hurting any of my family like I did before, I hate this life I have. Sorry about moaning and all, I know people have it worst off, sorry.