I am sorry. Very sorry. I am a failure and i admit it. I am from Singapore and i have written emails to SOS but it didn't work the way i have wanted. I want to die now. I am preparing my wills and i have even ordered a coffin and prepared my funeral mass band. I wanted to die because i am feeling lost and i have failed tremendously in everything that i do. SOS also cannot help me. SOS wanted me to go to their office to see their counsellors but i don't have the courage to do so.xxxx as all these are for sissies only. I want xxxx in xxxx. I have been discriminated by my GF because i have only got 1 testicle and my penis is small. My GF saw it and she ditched me. I cannot live another day anymore. I loved her a lot. During my school days, my teacher also discriminated me for being a gay. I didn't play soccer because i don't want to dirty my shoes because my mother will xxxx. I cums from an uneducated home and my english in school is not good but my teacher screws me by insulting me and kicking me out from the class. Made me go to EM3 class. I was an EM1 student because i worked hard in pri2 and i got to EM1 class. I started to shrink into my own world after that. I didn't want to mix around anymore. From primary school, i was promoted to the sec sch express stream then i went to Hwa Chong Junior college and i got into NUS medical school but i dropped out from medicine because i cannot take it anymore. I am going to go crazy soon. I want to die to end all my sufferings and i have already planned and made many arrangements. My deadine is up to next week and i will do as accordingly. I don;t know what to do and SOS(samaritians of singapore) also didn;t make me feel better anyway. I am a total FAILURE!!! sorry mama, sorry papa. I am unfailial. I want to die already so you just treat my death as nothing at all. I am a failure and it is not necessary to cry for me. Please let me go! Good Bye.