Maybe it’s time to stop suffering through this for others, I mean how much torture can one person take. I know I need to be back on my meds, but even that’s a temporary thing, I will eventually be back to where I am today, been here many times and I’m really tired of it. Getting pissed off that it does never change nothing I do and I do try, works. I’m tired of lying and being fake in this world, when all I want to do is scream to just leave the fuck alone, I hate you. I’m tired of being a robot, pushing myself through the day to make others happy to have no peace within myself. I can’t keep giving there is nothing left, all I want is for someone to kill me!! Really just push me in front of a train, or hit me on my way home. Please I can’t do this anymore, take me out of my own insanity. Noone knows me, not even myself, what have I become, nothing, what is there left, nothing, theres nothing to give or to take anymore. Im done trying, just take me now. If there is a GOD then please answer this one prayer and let me leave, take me and give me peace.