I know that there is some people on here that really don't like me and thats understandable... But honestly... If I don't say how I'm feeling and all that stuff on here then I have no where else to say it. I do have my girlfriend to talk to but... I try to not say much about my thoughts and all that because it just worries her and distracts her from her school stuff. And I have no other friends. At this point in my life I have a bunch of people around me that really don't like me. I guess thats all its ever been. I'm socially awkward... I get that. I say a bunch of stupid stuff because well... I'm not a very smart person. I'm getting to the point that I don't even feel comfortable posting on here. I just feel that what I say people just laugh at anyways.... Maybe its not true but It would be hard to convince me otherwise so... don't even bother trying. Its just where I'm at right now. I'm in a horrible place and absolutely refuse to believe anything good about myself. I'm kind of giving up on myself. I've never felt this sure before about ending my life.. I see no other way out. I've decided that I needed to get all this off my chest just in case. Honestly I don't expect much as for replies on here but just needed to say it.