Hugs honey, hope tomorrow is better than today.
Dont questions these ups and downs, its the disease messing with you. Its nothing you did wrong, or asked for, and def not deserve.
It seems to me that when Im under alot of stress I get these rollercoaster rides of emotions, and your under alot of stress. Dont forget to take a minute for you, cause I know how you are, dont wait until the negative energy is at full speed to sit and take a deep breathe.
Here if you ever want to talk. A