It's been 9 months since I last self harmed in any way (I cut). But now it's all gone. Had few idiots talk shit n shout insults at me. Had that guy kinda slap me in face and was about a centimetre away from punching me in the face. All because they were drunk twats because it's sunny. 9 long months of hard work for nothing, so what is the point. What's the point in going on. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life I've been back in work 5 weeks and this is the best I will ever feel I know it. In so selfish. The higher I get the harder the fall and I know when I get Ill again it will be the last time because I just can't do that again.