Have you ever felt like you were a nuisance to every single person you know, siblings, parents, teachers, friends, family, etc? Nothing in my life has been secure, whether it'd be friends, family, boyfriends, houses, money, etc... and because of this I always feel like whenever something good comes along, I have to prepare myself for the worst, because it'll just leave, just like everything good in my life. I've always been a drifter and I don't want to do it anymore, I don't want to drift, I want everything to be perfect, but it can't be because perfect for me is virtually impossible and that thought just kills me. I can't say I feel like a waste of space because I KNOW I'm a waste of space, I KNOW that everyone is better off without me I have no idea why I try and kid myself by telling myself different. I'm useless and hopefully soon enough no one will have to deal with me ever again.