I'm so scared. My migraine wont let up, I've fallen at least a dozen times now and now I'm having a panic attack and I can't quit crying. The only thing they can do to reduce the pain is to put me in a hospital and stick an iv in me and give me drugs that make the anxiety worse. Last time they did that I ended up making myself bleed by scratching my face and throwing my body around and having half of the ward think I had lost my mind. I just want to sleep. Just sleep and not wake up ever again. It hurts so much I can barely move. I've tried every drug on the market for migraines, nothing really works. I know where the big veins in my arms and hands are. I know what it would take to rupture them. I hate that I can't think about anything else. That I can't think of anything worth living for. I just want the pain to stop. I could try to cope with the rest of my life if it would just stop.