C...all I can say, is that you are not allowed to; that's right...allowed to...you mean so much to me, that the thought of not hearing from you for more than a few days hurts, let alone, you hurting yourself in any way...you know I am here, that we have been down this very trying road together...I need you...again, that's right; need you...and no, having other friends is not good enough...I want you in my life until we are too old to remember who the heck we are...talk to me; you have never over stayed your welcome...I deeply love you
PS...you have truly had it more difficult than anyone could imagine...it is not fair that someone as good and as giving as you should have to go through that...as you always say, wish I could do something to protect you from all of this...but all I have is my 'undying' love and respect