i never tougth i would be talking about this with someone, and i´m sure you probably read things like this everyday, but i don´t know what else to do. i started three years ago to cutting myself, i can´t remember why, but i feel like an addict when i try to not do it. And with the pass of time it`s getting worse because isn´t enough to make a little scar on my skin like it used to be. Now, since a little bit more than a year, i feel so sad that suicide comes to my mind every single night. i don´t know why, and you may think i´m crazy, but i only feel like this at night. During the day i´m active, even happy. Now my sadness still there in the morning,and i barely want to wake up. my job is over the edge, and I push away everybody i know and that i love. I barely want to eat, i´m having terribles headaches, and i have really big problems to sleep well. Sometimes i think the only thing i do well is cutting myself, and i´m not proud of it. please i need help. i'm 18 and i don´t want to die yet, i think... Please i apologise if my english isn´t good enough, because i´m from Argentina and here we speak spanish. Have a good night to everyone.