Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by MoAnamCara, Oct 6, 2016.
Sending hugs xxx
Sorry Mo. Hope today went better for you. Please take care of yourself.
It's been a really stressful week. Been very sad, missing someone. Feeling very odd, not sleeping right at all so that may be part of all of it. Throughout this week, there's been one common thought in my mind. To go, to end it. It scares me that I'm thinking this way again. But I also cant see of another way forward, not long term anyhow. This is me being completely honest. I've tried, but I''m shy and introverted. I don't let others in. So to have lost those closest to me in the last number of years, and now I have no one. I'm odd and strange and don't put myself out there. I know not having a support system isn't helping me. But it is what it is. I feel so very alone and sad, lonely and pathetic.
I hate you feel this way. But, honestly I feel that same way most nights. If you figure out, how to make it stop, let me know =)
We all feel like that but together we care each one of us. Hugs to YOU.
Thank you Moxman, Unknown_111
I know you are both right and I thank you very much for responding
I'm exhausted. Awake after a couple hours sleep due to nightmare. Trying to relax to see if I can get back to bed. A friend isn't doing well health wise. I don't want to lose them too. I know the time will come but I don't want it to be. They are tired of being this way and just want to go. It's difficult to hear that which is strange as that's how I feel some days. This situation has brought up many memories of when my better half was towards the end, Many tears, hidden ones, yesterday. Sad. Scared.
I'm not in a good place tonight. I don't know, stupidly, what to do about all of this. Unfortunately there's no one to reach out to. So, I'm here. That's all.
Here's hoping you can get some rest, and just calm your mind. Keep talking to us... I hope it helps. And don't be too hard on yourself. You're beyond fine in my eyes!!
Thanks MisterB for saying something. I'm really trying to relax and calm down. Just too upset atm to be able to get there.
What can you do for the time being to try to calm down? Listening to music? Watching tv?
Thanks DrownedFish... I took meds and played stupid games and that helped to get me to a point where I could then breath and calm myself.
Just taking longer these days, a lot of work and other stress atm.
I'm right there with you