Well for the past few years my family went through a lot of problems because of my father's inability to listen to anybody's ideas and thoughts.. I was 13 and extremely unstable, and for the past 3 years I've been forced to develop "fake" emotions so my friends don't flip out.. when i was younger i wanted to just give up and die and i tried to commit suicide secretly by walking into the woods once and cutting myself..but my only motivation to stay alive is to prove my father wrong about myself..Or maybe find a way to impress my father.. I taught myself how to play sports and be intelligent but yet it's as if he doesn't care. In my entire life I've received no words of good job or congratulations on my "achievements". If i mess up i get yelled at.. If i do a good job i get ignored..My older sister was always told good job and praised until i was 13 and she refused to stop dating a guy she loved. As we speak i joined this forum over a year ago and it's taken me an entire year to get the courage to actually interact.. Every week i deal with the thoughts of why and how? and i'm emotionally driven to die, but i know if i did that my father would look on me with disgust.. I'm too stubborn to open to others, yet for some reason others come to me for emotional support.. what am i to do? how can i end the suffering.. I know if i try to talk to my dad he'll laugh at me.. i already tried once and that was a huge failure..