Okay so I've been fiddling around with the therapy idea. I did try it, stopped going to sessions. Dad thinks I don't need it, of course (ignorance). But now its come to the fact that I want it...Some sort of professional to listen and actually know what to do. The idea of Borderline Personality Disorder bounced around as well, so a little while ago I went to my friends parents, one being a psychologist. I took a test, and he said I did fit right into the diagnosis, and that I should try to get into DBT as soon as I can, but I need a guardian's permission. This is where I am kind of twiddling my thumbs. My dad is noticing my downfall a bit, sure he tries to concern, but he is more focused on the new family. Part of me wants to try something REALLY stupid and then go to him. But I know its too drastic. I met someone, someone who MAKES me want to stick around. He is my sanity, and I don't want to leave him..but I know if I don't buckle down fast I am going to abandon him. (If he is reading this then he knows who he is ) I do like the fact I fit into a category...I mean I figured a few months ago its what I had..but I just have more prove now. It explains my outbursts, how fragile I am. My lack of a exact reality... How I can love someone to death then want them dead in the course of a week. I guess my question is, how can I get this help without my dad signing off? Isn't there something I can do...even without my dad knowing would be better. Mom is out of the question, she doesn't care enough to lift her pinky at the thought (no exaggeration) Most people are adults here, so maybe they know more, but if ANYONE has ANY idea, please post it. I just need some ideas. As much as I push people away..I want the help now. Wow this is a long rant..Hehe.