There is a lot to this ima try to be breif. My s.o. of 2 years wants to no longer be ina relationship and move into his own place. And i don't have people to talk to about this. Everyone is in their own issues and coming to me about them all at once. No one knows whats going on with me. Everyone is litteraly calling and msging me about their problems at once like the universe finds it funny. My birthday is in a week btw. I am rapidly cycling at random through greif stages and i only noticed when i started getting angry at it all.
And ive done this before because the things he said are the same my ex of a 10 year relationship said. Never got to live on their own. Wants me to be more independent and its hard to love someone who doesn't love themselves...
My mom calls me crying, her and grandpa upset my aunt passed from covid. My sister's bf is cheating. My dad needs money. My best friend needs money. My other bestfriend needs advice and attention cause shes depressed. I can't cayltch a moment alone to have a private breakdown because i constantly need to be okay. I work full time 51 hrs this week. And i have developed this pain in my stomach, like cramping folding feeling, it makes me not want to eat.
I keep lstealing time in the bathroom to force myself to dissociate so i don't cry and flip out on someone. I just keep tilting from anger to saddness. And after doing that in the bathroom im just numb but functional...so yeah
And ive done this before because the things he said are the same my ex of a 10 year relationship said. Never got to live on their own. Wants me to be more independent and its hard to love someone who doesn't love themselves...
My mom calls me crying, her and grandpa upset my aunt passed from covid. My sister's bf is cheating. My dad needs money. My best friend needs money. My other bestfriend needs advice and attention cause shes depressed. I can't cayltch a moment alone to have a private breakdown because i constantly need to be okay. I work full time 51 hrs this week. And i have developed this pain in my stomach, like cramping folding feeling, it makes me not want to eat.
I keep lstealing time in the bathroom to force myself to dissociate so i don't cry and flip out on someone. I just keep tilting from anger to saddness. And after doing that in the bathroom im just numb but functional...so yeah