I'll not say what drug so nobody else gets an idea, but suffice it to say it can be very effective for suicide. My father is recovering from cancer, and thusly needs some good painkillers. He was recently on (Drug Name Here) and moved to methadone. For this reason, a bottle of ~45 20mg tablets (roughly 900 mg) of (Drug Name Here) is now sitting on a table about a metre from the door of the room. Some quotes for a lethal dose is 300mg. I tried before with a different drug, so I'm surprised my mother left it there, but even though I'm not having a very depressed night, I don't want to regret passing up such an easy method that's right in front of me. Regardless of treatment and meds I just can't shake my distaste for this world and this life. I really don't want to do that to my parents, though. Even if I exonerate them in a note they'll still feel guilty for leaving it there. I think I'd rather wait it out and off myself someway that wont leave them guilt ridden. What kind of scares me is that my emotions aren't heightened at all while thinking about this. It's like I'm choosing my clothes for the day.