So last night, i was sitting in my room it was about 1 am. I reached in my pocket and pulled out a quarter and i said if its tails i won't do it. But if its head than i will do it, i'll kill myself. I had it all planed out too. I even had a suicde note prepared. Anyway before i fliped the coin I preyed to God I said "God if you can hear me listen to me now. If my life won't get any better if I'm going to grow old hating myself and my actions than let it land heads. But if there is a purpose for me if my life will someday get better than let it land tails. So i fliped the coin and i didn't look at it right away for 10 minutes i sat there thinking what if it is heads? Should I really go though with it? Did God really hear me? finally I slowly looked down and it was tails. So i don't know if maybe it was a stroke of luck that it landed tails or that God was listening and my life will get better and this is God answer to my prayer.