Warning, this thread may be triggering and controversial, if you continue reading, try to read it with an open mind. [About me] I am 19 years old and in those years I have been questioning reality. I have been through a lot and still go through a lot however I have also come to understand a lot. My father was an alcoholic who abused my mom in front of me. They divorced when I was about 11, however the problems did not stop there. My school marks went downhill, and my behavior changed. My mom is a lazy person, and I believe that she could of done much more for me if she wasn't so lazy. From the schools she chose, to the environment she created at home, she constantly did harm to me on a psychological level, even if she did not know it. I used to hide my emotions, my true feelings, and in a way, I became a very good actor. However even though I have never seen a psychologist, I am sure that over the years I created multiple personalities, a term the scientists call Dissociative identity disorder and have also acquired Schizophrenia. However I began enduring my problems, and I began feeling normal that I liked isolation, and that I thought in a different way. I also forgave my father and mother for my childhood, for if it wasn't what I've been through, I would not be the person I am today. And even though I've been through hell, I am thankful for it. If I had the chance to change my past, I would leave it as it was. [/About me] This thread is my attempt to give insight into many different topics, like God, Religion, Human Behaviors etc. These are my opinions which I have developed over years of observation. If you feel offended by my statements, you are not reading them with an open mind. By this I mean your opinions are conflicting with mine, however they are just opinions, you can either choose to learn something from them, or ignore them. However ignorance is humanity's greatest challenge. You are free to comment and debate and suggest new topics I could add. Please note that I constantly keep updating my beliefs, therefore what I write at a certain time is by no means my final opinion, and by no means 'complete'. I would also like to mention that language is a problem these days, and everyone interprets it differently. My explanation can not be concrete, they are merely a concept for you to understand the details by yourself. ================================================== God I was born and baptized as a catholic christian. My father was an alcoholic and constantly abused my mother in front of me. Every night I used to run outside away from the screaming, and kept on crying out "please God, make it stop". After countless 'prayers', I noticed no changes, and I gave up on believing this entity called God. From then on I used to curse God, I used to swear at him and hate him for how he did not want to help me. From 7 till I was about 15 I was an atheist. During this time I noticed the conflict I had with people who believed in God and a lot of hatred was thrown around and some insisted on trying to convert me. There was also a point where I received a bible, but after reading the first few pages I saw nonsense and did not continue. Later, I began to understand that everyone is entitled to their beliefs and that no one should be told what is right to believe in, and what is wrong. From 16 I dropped my 'attacks' on God and decided to not have a religion and just not to believe in God. Whenever people asked me are you a Christian, do you believe in God, I answered no, I do not believe in God. They responded with something that continuously angered me, "Ah so you're an atheist". People assumed that if you did not believe in God you were an atheist, however my idea of "atheism" was someone 'attacking' religion and I did not like that. I was not trying to attack anyone's beliefs, I just did not have a religion or a belief in God. From 13 I constantly had a vague interest in Energy, and by 18 I adopted it as my belief for all of creation. I used to say I do not believe in God and I do not have a religion, however I do believe in Energy. Briefly, Energy is what you would find if you had a strong enough microscope. It is what particles are made of, and in turn, what atoms and molecules are made of. However when I just turned 19 I was confronted with another question. I was asked if I believed in God, I answered no. Then I was asked what I believed in, I said Energy, and that everything was made from Energy. Then that person said, yes, but what do you think created that energy? I did not have an answer. A few months ago I found my answer. I finally understood what God Is. God is realized through one's self, not through religion, for religion is based on the opinion of one, accompanied by the opinion of others, until a universal opinion that is suitable for all to believe in is established. By the above statement I can not be a part of any religion, for the truth lies in all the religions. I do not deny the existence of God, I deny the existence of a God. Ok, so now you may be asking yourself, what is God? From a scientific point of view I will say, It is something that created the everything. That 'something' is for you to realize yourself, not through religion. From a literal point of view, God is everything. If you want to understand God remove the current ideas that have been given to you and start from fresh. Start understanding God, by your own ideas. Suffering is a part of God. There is always a balance. Instead of cursing God when you suffer, try to question yourself as to why you are suffering and what could God possibly try to tell you through the suffering. It seems crazy, but if you did not suffer you would not begin to ask the questions you ask when you suffer. There is no such thing as coincidence, everything has a reason. The suffering we see, that does not seem to change by praying to a God, is the suffering caused by not realizing what God Is. God has been on Earth in Human form many times now, yet humanity does not see this, because their idea of what a god is, is not the same as what God Is. What do humans expect God to look like, the things he should do if he were around us... The majority of us expect miracles and with the swipe of a hand the sick are restored to health etc etc... that is why when God does come in human form... no one believes it is God because that human does not prove himself to be God by doing miracles. It is our ignorance that blinds us from what God truly is. ================================= Religion The reason at one point I became an atheist, is actually because of religion. Religion preaches an idea to you, if you believe in that idea blindly, you follow blindly not even knowing why you do certain things that the religion asks you to do. If you question that idea, it might not make much sense and the majority deny the existence of God in general just because you were given an idea of what God is and did not believe in that idea. You do not need religion to understand God. As an example, Christianity has been so distorted that the majority of Christians believe in a single entity with miraculous powers. Therefore they imagine God as one 'person' who judges all humans and has miraculous powers. The person who does not believe in this is actually right, however they are wrong when they deny the existence of God. A few days ago I told my Christian friend that I finally understood God. And even though I tried to tell her the truth, she fought with me. She asked what god would that be, God, Allah, Yahweh? I told her I cannot give her a name, for all of those names are correct. I asked her if she read the Kuran, she replied no, I asked why not? She told me as a Christian she believed that other religions worship idols, and God does not allow that. Yet she has never actually researched on other religions, so how could she believe that they worship idols without finding out herself. The Kuran states that you are not allowed to worship idols, and that you are not allowed to believe in any deities except the one true God, Allah, or Supreme Being, etc. I asked her, can you not see the contradiction in your religion. She told me lets agree to disagree. While I am not going to force my beliefs onto anyone, it is sad how ignorant humans are. All religions are corrupt. One way or another, they have been altered and the books the religions carry have been altered. The books themselves have also been written in a way that only the open minded will receive the message. The bible, the kuran etc they are all written in code. There is truth hidden in them, however whether you find that truth will depend on how you read the books. If you read them literally, you are reading them wrong. As an example, in the bible, God created Earth in 7 days. According to science this does not make sense. I like to read it as 7 cycles (1 cycle being a certain number of years). If I read it this way, then the bible fits in with science. [Literal] On the first day God said let there be light and there was light. [Interpretation] In the first cycle, God created some kind of light source. According to science, our Sun was the first thing formed in our solar system. [Literal] On the second day God said let there be water and there was an ocean of water. [Interpretation] In the second cycle, God filled Earth with water. According to science, over thousands of years, our young Earth was bombarded with asteroids. In those asteroids were bits of saturated water. Over thousands of years it began creating oceans. Kind of like having rain for days and you begin to have floods. This was just an example at how things can be interpreted and the bible is one of the most misinterpreted texts. Seek truth and you shall find it, but believe in what is said to be the truth and you will be blinded. I believe as far as religion goes, it was meant to aid in realizing God. However its true sacred purpose has been corrupted. All religions hold the truth, if you believe in one religion holding all the answers or being the true religion, you are off track. I do not believe in having a religion for religion is a dangerous tool, and if used incorrectly it can do more harm than good. [Malachi 2:8] But now you priests have turned away from the right path. Your teaching has led many to do wrong. If you want to understand God, look into all religions, look everywhere and in everything, because God is everything. We are being separated and blinded, think of all the different religions and the disagreement between what God Is. [Malachi 1:10] Oh, that one of you would shut the temple doors, so that you would not light useless fires on my altar! The ultimate truth lies in everything ============================= This thread is open to opinions and debate, in fact I actually encourage it. I will post more topics soon, and would love to hear from you what you would like for me to talk about.