I finally, after weeks of working up the courage and thinking through all of my problems for triggers and descriptions, went to get help today. I went to my school counsellor. We spent almost an hour talking. I told him about my bulimia and self harm. Almost everything. I still feel horrific. Don't get me wrong, I was never expecting him to say something and all of my problems to just dissappear, but I feel worse now. I feel like my dignity is gone, I feel weak for not handling this on my own. I feel stupid for even going because my problems seemed so trivial when I said them; and I feel fidgety and nervous and so vulnerable. I spoke to him at about 11 and I'm still terrified that he's told someone and they'll judge me or treat me differently. I'm so scared. He asked me to write down a list of things that I like about myself. I've been thinking for 6 hours, and I have 5 things (two of which I'm not sure I believe). I thought that you were meant to feel better or the same after this, not worse.