Okay. I've not actually written about any problems of my own on this site before. And really, it's not a major problem but I answered a quiz on the internet and scored 199 which apparantly means I would benefit from an intensive treatment programme. I was somewhat shocked at that outcome because I thought (and I still do) that I am able to control myself to a degree not to let things spiral out of total control. I suppose the very fact that I'm writing in this section of the forum already gives you a clue as to the nature of my "problem". I am in no way underweight. In fact, I am overweight. I suppose you could say I have issues with food, my weight and I suppose my self esteem. I find myself severely restricting my intake, over exercising and taking laxatives/diet pills for some weeks and then I will binge and despise myself for it. I am slowly losing weight and I know that my goal weight is unrealistic for my height. I also know I am risking my health somewhat. Yet I find myself saying that I can recognise any signs and symptoms and treat them myself accordingly. The most shameful part of my confession.....Going to an anorexic patient to take her to hospital and deep down being jealous of her weight. That's awful isn't it? This poor girl needs my help and all I can think of is how I want my body to look like hers. I'm disgusted at myself really.