Please don't take them. If it doesn't work, you could cause permanent damage to your organs. This will not make your life any better, it will only make matters worse. And if it does work, anyone you know will miss you tremendously and they will probably feel some sense of guilt that they couldn't save you. Please stay on the forums and tell us what's bothering you. We don't want you to do anything that you're going to regret. You will regret it if you take all those pills. Everyone on this forum can relate to what you're going through and we want you to live. I'm here for you if you want to pm me.
Funny thing is, I can't be denied by you because I don't lose anything if you kill yourself. You lose the chance to be or do anything meaningful in the future, and anyone close to you loses most of all. There is no power in this; it only feels like it because your vision has narrowed to exclude your true strength. I should know.
<mod edit: Malcontent - no methods> either way, what is the point of this post? are you asking for help or what? correct me if im wrong, but it seems like the entire point of this thread is because you're proud of yourself and your little "cocktail." im not trying to be insulting but if you dont want help why post anything at all? There are some here who are still teetering on the edge and posts like this just upset them more. Seems kinda pointless.
But, if you are actually looking for help and thats just your way of expressing it then my apologies.