I admit, i'm a horrible loser at this. I attempted an overdose 2 weeks ago outside, vomited out half the dosage necessary, and passed out. The police found me and had me warded. After a few days of warding, I was sent to a mental institute for further warding because I was a suicide case. Only that the people in the mental institute, (nurses and patients), bad talked about me and harassed me for the 5 days I was there. Because I'm a "******", and I'm trans. Instead of trying to make me feel better, they harassed me, called me names, and what not. This is my 4th experience having this harassment at this mental institute, because this was my 4th failed suicide attempt after transitioning. No one cares because I'm a "******" and hence abuse worthy. I nearly attempted an overdose today again, only i sorely lacked the amount of pills needed to succeed. God hates me, thats why he made me this way. I spent 30 years of my life just waiting for next life to live. God hates me, which is why he made me this way. Gender is so superficial and stupid. I just want to be me.