This was a post I wrote on another forum on the internet. Just hoping to see if I get more response on this one. I am almost 22 years old. I started with that phrase, maybe quite strange and not well placed, but with a good reason. Most people when reading that will undoubtly think that it's the beggining of an uncomplished story of life, where I will be complaining.. Well, that's about it!! It seemed I would be finish this little introduction in another way, but no, just another way to satisfy my need of being apparently, unusuall.. So lets begin. I am just broken, in a way that I can't feel how broken I am like I did some time ago.. Because of that, sometimes I try to imagine and create some scenarios that by experience, I think, should arouse some feeling, some marvoullous feeling of suffering, of frustration and self pity, maybe even some delight in distant dreams.. One of those dreams, without space, I tried to tell myself what would really feel like to have a woman caressing my needs for affection, in the form of an embracing maybe, I can't know for sure that would be the best, because I can't trust my dreams or memories of watched movies, read poetry, love scenes with pulsating love.. I fail most of the time.. But I found an ember of that fire that is love.. From somewhere from my uncounciousness, really uncouncious, it came to me.. I don't know, I felt it feeling it, without thoughts to decorate it, to deny it.. What would it be to be embraced by the person you love?! I don't know.. I lost the image again.. I never had that in my life, and maybe that would be the cure for the poison that runs through my vains, from a diseased brain.. Why do I write this here? Am I perhaps calling for a consumation of that desire? I didn't thought so when I started.. But now, maybe, I feel somewhat excited about the possibility of some girl to somehow be enchanted by my poor soul, that knows not love, or it's touch.. I am a poet from year to year, month to month, and it pains me that I would probably never be able to ever tell you again how much I loved you, and the whys.. Enough!!