A person who I thought had everything, killed himself. He was a nice, handsome and mature guy. With no money problems at all and he was really loved. He killed himself. I have had 3 suicide attempts and on the last one I almost died. Now I feel like I have been such a coward for not succeeding in doing it. Anyways I just feel like a worthless stupid woman who can't control her emotions and who is going really really down and I don't find any goal in life who keeps me here. Life seems to have lost me. Life is not interested in helping me. I want to run, to fly, to disappear!!!!!!