Last year I held this job, that was suppose to only be a summer job, where one day I saw this girl that caught my eye. I talked to her and asked her if she was new, after doing so she freaks out on me and I simply say bye and go away. One month later, she appears again, a new employee. Slowly we started flirted back and forth, and everything went great. So foolishly I assumed this relationship would work so I decided to stay working there after the summer, which meant I would have to stay there for a year or so, due to finance issues.
Anyways, one day she simply begins to ignore me, (rumors abound that I am weird probably were the reason) and I found out this is odd. So I try to talk to her and she simply ignores me. I have no clue what has happened. The next following weeks she gets really angry at me, and I simply find it difficult now to communicate with her at all. I get really depressed and fail at my schoolwork. Then December comes by and then this new employee shows up and she begins to frantically flirt with this guy, but very openly. They eventually form a relationship, but not after I was standing in front of her one day and she talks openly and very loudly in detail how she just finish sleeping with him. All this eventually just did me in. I could no longer deal with this and desperately tried to get out but I really liked this girl. What made everything worse was the fact that she eventually ended up coming back to me, and leaving me all over again, which confused me greatly. Eventually she got fired and I never saw her again.
The worst part of everything is that I cannot replace her. I have tried, I do not know why this is, but it has a lot to do with her childlike personality which I cannot find in anyone else. It has been a year, I don't know how to cope with this, but I have forgotten about her and am not really looking to start a relationship with her ever again, but I simply cannot replace her, nor find a girlfriend that I like anymore because of her. By the way, I have never been in a relationship or known someone as long as I did her, which is sad since I cannot consider her and me as a relationship. In addition, now that I am older I find myself not liking the girls my age at all, everyone seems so much more mature than what I can deal with... I don't know what to do.
Anyways, one day she simply begins to ignore me, (rumors abound that I am weird probably were the reason) and I found out this is odd. So I try to talk to her and she simply ignores me. I have no clue what has happened. The next following weeks she gets really angry at me, and I simply find it difficult now to communicate with her at all. I get really depressed and fail at my schoolwork. Then December comes by and then this new employee shows up and she begins to frantically flirt with this guy, but very openly. They eventually form a relationship, but not after I was standing in front of her one day and she talks openly and very loudly in detail how she just finish sleeping with him. All this eventually just did me in. I could no longer deal with this and desperately tried to get out but I really liked this girl. What made everything worse was the fact that she eventually ended up coming back to me, and leaving me all over again, which confused me greatly. Eventually she got fired and I never saw her again.
The worst part of everything is that I cannot replace her. I have tried, I do not know why this is, but it has a lot to do with her childlike personality which I cannot find in anyone else. It has been a year, I don't know how to cope with this, but I have forgotten about her and am not really looking to start a relationship with her ever again, but I simply cannot replace her, nor find a girlfriend that I like anymore because of her. By the way, I have never been in a relationship or known someone as long as I did her, which is sad since I cannot consider her and me as a relationship. In addition, now that I am older I find myself not liking the girls my age at all, everyone seems so much more mature than what I can deal with... I don't know what to do.
