First of all, hello. I hope to find some useful info here, and maybe can help some others in the future. I am a 31 year-old guy with a few things going on. I used to live with my brother and a friend, and had many friends around me. I moved out on my own about 15 months ago, and retreated into my own little world, which includes a significant alcohol habit. The result is that I am miserable and alone. I've dealt with depression and suicidal thought since my early teen years, but things are pretty bleak now. Having an adult concept of economic and social reality has not helped me. It makes me more suicidal than I otherwise would be. There are very few barriers left at this point. One of the last was my mother's mental stability. However, on Thanksgiving there was an incident that took away that condideration. So, anyway, what is there except AA? That's not going to happen. I'm not looking for sympathy or pleading, but if you have any alternative resources , I'd appreciate them. I'm in a pretty bad place.