a levels

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by possessednomad, Aug 16, 2007.

  1. possessednomad

    possessednomad Well-Known Member

    Today was A Level results day. need i say more?

    anyway, they were kind of shit after good results last year, and i got rejected by my top choice of university. my second choice accepted me and im having doubt about going there. i broke down in the car on the way home and my mum thought it was about the results but it was just because this is the kind of day which makes your anxiety go sky fucking high. its not like for everyone else. they don't feel like they have to move their head in a certain way or they'll fail, etc.

    ive been very suicidal today and have considered self harming for some reason which would have been a first. but i havent tried either yet.

    i never blame other things for doing badly, but for once, this wasn't all my fault, i cant help having a fucking problem and then other problems going on around me too which haven't helped all year.

    i know this isnt very ranty but i just feel like im so pissed off with my mum going on about sorting this university thing out but i need to try and clear (at least as far as i can) my head - i tbh almost dont care about university anymore i just cant take the pressure even though its probably really minimal.

    cya, possessednomad
     
  2. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Sometimes things happen that effect us in negative ways as was evident by what happened with your exams. This doesn't mean you cannot go on and be very successful at the university you attend. Is there a chance you can transfer your second year? I know in the US we do not have to attend the same University throughout the entire time period of higher education. I am not sure how your system works. i am sorry your mom reacted the way she did. She should have been happy that you were accepted into your second choice. There are those that are denied completely.