Today was A Level results day. need i say more?
anyway, they were kind of shit after good results last year, and i got rejected by my top choice of university. my second choice accepted me and im having doubt about going there. i broke down in the car on the way home and my mum thought it was about the results but it was just because this is the kind of day which makes your anxiety go sky fucking high. its not like for everyone else. they don't feel like they have to move their head in a certain way or they'll fail, etc.
ive been very suicidal today and have considered self harming for some reason which would have been a first. but i havent tried either yet.
i never blame other things for doing badly, but for once, this wasn't all my fault, i cant help having a fucking problem and then other problems going on around me too which haven't helped all year.
i know this isnt very ranty but i just feel like im so pissed off with my mum going on about sorting this university thing out but i need to try and clear (at least as far as i can) my head - i tbh almost dont care about university anymore i just cant take the pressure even though its probably really minimal.
cya, possessednomad
anyway, they were kind of shit after good results last year, and i got rejected by my top choice of university. my second choice accepted me and im having doubt about going there. i broke down in the car on the way home and my mum thought it was about the results but it was just because this is the kind of day which makes your anxiety go sky fucking high. its not like for everyone else. they don't feel like they have to move their head in a certain way or they'll fail, etc.
ive been very suicidal today and have considered self harming for some reason which would have been a first. but i havent tried either yet.
i never blame other things for doing badly, but for once, this wasn't all my fault, i cant help having a fucking problem and then other problems going on around me too which haven't helped all year.
i know this isnt very ranty but i just feel like im so pissed off with my mum going on about sorting this university thing out but i need to try and clear (at least as far as i can) my head - i tbh almost dont care about university anymore i just cant take the pressure even though its probably really minimal.
cya, possessednomad