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A little advice please

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Seasons of Love, Mar 30, 2013.

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  1. Seasons of Love

    Seasons of Love New Member

    I’m an 18 year old male and I’ve just finished my first year at university. Suicidal feelings are not something that I have dealt with over a large amount of my life but in the past year or so, the feelings have intensified.

    I think my problem is that I feel lost and confused and I’m searching for a way out. Last year I started university, I’ve stuck it out for the year but I’m not really enjoying the course. I’ve missed most of the lectures and such as a result of this. I could switch courses but I haven’t found something else that I would rather study. I’m at that stage where getting a part time job is necessary as experience needs to be on my CV in the future but as silly as it sounds I’m just afraid of the world out there. I’ve always preferred to spend time indoors watching tv on my own rather than socialising and trying new things and now I realise that it’s become a problem. I’ve never been good in social situations, I often find myself starting to panic if I am in a group environment or if I’m being introduced to new people. These past few months I’ve given up attending uni so I have little motivation to get out of bed each day. I find that each day I spend about 1 hour a day not in bed. I just have no reason to leave the house. I have some friends from school but they have all moved on in their lives really and I hardly ever get the chance to see them. I have confided in one friend about my feelings but he’s of the opinion that if there’s a problem you just need to deal with it which is of course easier said than done.

    I need to start putting myself out there more and leave my bed more often. The solution seems logical and simple but the reality is far different. I’ve always said to myself life is precious because once it’s taken away, it is gone forever and I’ve always thought that one day everything will turn out okay. But since starting university, that idealistic future has disappeared and I no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel. A life where I lay in bed doing next to nothing everything with very little human interaction doesn’t seem like a life worth living. Everything night I find myself struggling to sleep because of the thoughts in my head. I don’t think suicide is the answer but I am failing to see how my life is going to progress and go forward at this point. I just want to be put out of my misery in a sense.

    Thank you x
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hi hun have you talked to anyone hun your doctor a councilor at your university about how you are feeling Anxiety depression both are things that can be treated hun with therapy or meds but there is support for you. Talk to someone ok don't give up your year of university of all your work hun The light is still there at the end of the tunnel hun just you cannot see it so clearly but if you talk to a councilor at your school they will get you the support you need hun Glad you are talking here hun as well because now you know you are not alone ok hugs
  3. empathyforu

    empathyforu New Member

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