Well here goes: I first joined here 5 years ago wen I was just 16, I just left school and had alot on my shoulders, I was depressed and self harming and had given up hope on my life, i came here for someone to talk to as I had nobody. I started college and found it hard to make friends because of the way I felt i was very anxious and feeling more and more depressed, I struggled with work loads and with college in general everyday was a struggle. I took advice from people on here and took medical advice I found it a strggle but stuck it out, A few months down the line I took an od and spent sometime in hospital, my parents found it hard to talk to me and vice versa, i couldnt understand why I was feeling the way I did I lost friends and withdrew myself from people I knew, as a result i was put on anti-ds, my life was hard and every day I wanted to give up so badly and eventually with drew myself from here,I stuck college out and aftertwo years i completed my course and gained a diploma. It woas tough. and most days I cried but I wanted to suceed in somthing in my life,a week afterfinishing i was offed my dream job, I kept myself quiet and hid from my thoughts and feelings taking each day slowly and a day at a time. i learnt to cope with my feelings and knew i had to get on with my life. Threeyears on I have my own flat, ican drive andhave my own car i still have my job and have been promoted to a type of manager, life was smooth until lately I once again have started to feel down and feel somtimes like just crying,But at work im the one who is never sad so wen I am everyone notices i know depression will always be with me but i guess what im trying to say is people think they will never feel better but things do pick up ok maybe u may have bad spells like i am but there is always someone to help, dont bottle up your feelings its the worst thing to do. Sorry I rambled but I needed to say it all.