Hello,I am a 21-year-old girl from Poland I am not quite suicidal,I am just constantly fed up with my life...whatever happens it all just ends up being a piece of sht ,hah;/ I have been at psychiatrist a few times but he did not manage to help me,I do not believe in pills,at least those i got,did not work... I am just a loser who study in the best university in the country ,a prestigous major..And having artistic talent.. I could become anything but I feel so weak that it is impossible.It's not just psychological matter,I feel that my body is weak and that i cannot help it. I am not sick or something,it's just a feeling that i cannot explain.I used to be a sickly child and some of my problems followed but I am relatively healthy... I used to be a sad person all of my life but now it's just too much and I cannot see serious origins of this.Perhaps my childhood can be blamed but it was not sooo bad ,just a few disappointments,that's all. Perhaps some of us just feel bad and is is of organic origins.. The thing is that I am not in depression but I am not happy and do not have the will to achieve happiness or success,anything.I just let the time pass. I don't know whatever I would like to say welcome to you... And maybe if you feel just as I do,tell me,perhaps you could help me understand my condition.