Hello everyone, I am 21 years old aand I don’t really know where to start or what to say. I guess i will start with that i have a incurable genetic disease called osteogenesis imperfecta (also known as brittle bone disease) . I guess in my first post i ll explain about my disease since its a huge part of me idk if thats ok. So i ll start as you probably already figured it out it’s main symptoms are really fragile bones, short height and of course weakened musculature due to bone breaks. There are a 4 types of this disease i am type 1 ( the mildest) and i have around 30 bone breaks in my lifetime and i can walk. The other types are either fatal ot wheelchair bound with up to 100+ bone breaks even a sneeze can cause it in the more severe types. I am 140cm tall or 4 feet 10-11 inches. Ive had many many leg surgeries and i have metal rods in my legs from top to bottom to support my bones and prevent them from bending. Surprisingly bodybuilding used to be my hobby my passion i used to do it since the age of 15 and eventho there hasn’t been even a year without surgery or bone breaks I always went back in the gym until last year where i broke my femur (thigh) bone two times in one year and that made me give up on it cuz i got tired of breaking bones and starting from zero. Also the older i get the more fragile im gonna become and the more complications im gonna get like scoliosis osteoporosis arthritis etc.. i cant run never could.. i walk with a limp cuz my left leg is 1-1,5 inch shorter than my right. I think that’s enough about my disease for now if u have any questions please do ask. About me.. I never kissed a girl, never had a girlfriend thats not virtual long distance rship its just i guess all this+ the fact that i look like im 14 due to short height and young face and limping doesn’t help ( thats how I developed my passion for bodybuilding. I started bcuz I hated people calling me small even without hurtful intentions or confusing me with a kid all the time). I have friends, loving family etc etc yet i feel so so sad all the time and it wasn’t like that when i was 14-15.. when i was14-15 i never thought about my disease or anything i kinda ignored it all and played video games all day but the older i got the more depressed i got. Im at a point where i hate myself i hate my body and I don’t feel worthy to be with someone . For example when i talk to a girl i can’t imagine her liking me the way i am. I think that’s enough about me for now. Sorry for the long post and my English isn’t my native language so sorry if there are mistakes.