Well, hi there. I am daciana and i am new here to this forum. Have been lurking around a couple of times checking things out, but only now i feel ready to say a little something about myself. So, here it is. I have issues, like everyone else i guess, but my problems prevent me from leading a normal life or something close to whatever normal is. It's weird, but i remember the exact moment when everything shifted for the worse, it felt like something in me shattered, and i became dark, i began to isolate myself from the world. Now i am socially challenged, inadequate. I lack the ability to connect with other people. Sometimes human interaction makes me nervous, other times it just bores me, so i stay away from such situations as much as possible. As a result, i am unemployed. And as a result, i am miserable. I should try harder to be this and do that, but i struggle to do things that for most people are easy. When i feel that I can't deal with all this anymore, dark thoughts haunt me, and the little voices start to appear in my head. I have suicidal thoughts often, i just want it all to end. I want to see the light, i want to face the sunshine, i don't wish for a kind of happiness that i could never achieve, i really want to live, not just exist. It's tiring, being the freak, but i don't think i should have to change who i am. All i need is to be less afraid. For that, i really do wish.