To be completely honest, I'm not quite sure what I'm doing on this website. I've always known that forums like this existed but it never crossed my mind to join one. By nature, I'm a very shy and quiet person. It feels odd just joining this site because I barely speak to anyone on a day to day basis and I wouldn't dare speak to those around me about how I really felt. Just being here reveals something about me that I'm not comfortable with at all but I think what hit me last night, the sheer intensity of it, out weighs that fear. I broke a promise to myself and then after googling suicide, I don't really remember what I was looking for, I came across this site. I've never been on a forum before.. I'm a bit overwhelmed and completely lost on how to use it but for once, I'm throwing myself out there. So, hello to all.