Hey guys, remember me? Probably not... Anyway, I've been doing well. In fact I haven't cut myself for almost three weeks. I am really proud of myself, I never thought I'd make it so far. It's my upcoming graduation party that has kept me motivated. Wounds and a pretty dress don't really go together. I have to admit that I haven't been 100% SH free. I've been scratching myself. My nails aren't really sharp and it only leaves temporary marks. Sometimes I would just press my nails into my skin as hard as I can. It helps me calm down but it doesn't feel as good as cutting with a razor. So.. I am really afraid that after the party I am going to relapse and let all the anger that has been building up inside me out on myself.. again. I really miss cutting... is that weird?I've been clean for so long. One side of me doesn't want to ruin it. The other side can't wait to go back to it's old habits. I don't know why just wrote this.Also I am sorry if this makes no sense. It's almost 2am and I am really tired but I just had to get this out of me.